Hooly crap.. my life has been so fucking emtotional and crazy lately I can't even find the strength or the time to write here anymore. I've got a bunch of crap to put on here, but right now..eesh.
I'll be posting the rest of SPN con soon.. I really want to, you have no idea! And right now I have GISHWHES happening and that's just a whole other bucket of crazy.
One team member has pissed me off royally.. I really don't like her or her mediocre crap, but whatever if the rest of the team wants to submit it, fine.
So I'll be back.. I promise because I told myself this is what I wanted to do and it helps get all the bullshit outta my head. >< SOON, blog. SOON.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Supernatural DallasCon 2012 - Thursday
And now, almost two months later I am posting about the con. Tried to avoid it, didn't want to forget it and am lovingly going to recount what I can for myself and whomever wants to read this.
Our trip started on Thursday because Ria and I drove down to Texas then. Hah. We got a late start because we had to wait for Archiver's (a scrap booking store) to open since we needed to print a photo that Ria was going to have signed. Neither of our printers are awesome like that, so we have to pay. BOO. However, we got to the DMV on time and I was able to update my driver licenses, and Ria got her Missouri one and also registered to vote in Missouri. Woohoo! So after we got the licenses and the picture, off we went. We headed through Kansas and even though her GPS was being a fucktard she just went her own way and I kept my mouth shut because I didn't know where I was going and I feel like if I try to get my input in during driving someplace I really should have just kept my mouth shut. :\ I'm no good at directions and every time we end up using her phone's GPS it puts us in whothefuckknowsville. But anyway.. we made it.
So sometime in Oklahoma we switched and I drove through Tulsa and down into Texas while Ria slept. Wasn't too bad of a drive, some idiots and I had to get used to a much bigger car, but it was normal I think. Didn't get pulled over so that was good. We switched back so Ria was driving the closer we got to Dallas. I'm not a fan of driving in new places and she would probably murder me if I was driving then anyway. So it was just better for both our sakes. XD Anyway.. we're almost to Dallas then we hit traffic and basically stop. UGH. It was so bad..we had like 20 minutes left and it took us twice that time to get through the city and to the hotel. IT WAS HORRIBLE. And then while we were waiting, I looked out the windows and see.. birds. Lots. Of. Birds. Seriously, it was horrifying how many birds there were! On the electric lines, on the fences, EVERYWHERE BIRDS!
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Finally we made it down to the part of town where the Westin was. I could see it.. it was SO CLOSE! Then at long last we're there, and find out we have to pay for parking. This hotel had so many problems with hidden fees, it wasn't funny. We haul our stuff inside, I get us checked in and then we head upstairs. I'm thinking, hey for $110 a night we're gonna get a fridge, microwave and tv and wifi! WOO! But I was so wrong. About two weeks before I found out that wifi isn't free unless you're in the lobby or standing on the second floor balcony hanging over the lobby. -____- There was no fridge in the room, and no microwave. There was a crappy tv, a teeny tiny safe and a recycle bin however! Because by some off chance I might have a plastic bottle in the room with me to throw in that blue container. Ugh. We had bought milk for our breakfast and brought cereal and yogurt with us and there is no fridge, so we fandangled ourselves one out of using two trash cans and filling em with ice. Didn't work that well, but it helped at least. The milk was sour by Sunday morning. UGH.
Besides the asinine room amenities, it was a pretty nice room. Beds weren't as big as I imagined, but eh whatever. We got settled, grabbed something to eat and I think we registered since they had it set up for people to do so. I think we also wandered around the vendors that were already set up. Ria went upstairs for a while and I roamed around downstairs with my birthday cards to get people to sign them and I ended up meeting Ariel, Mindy, Emily, Alestra, Tina and more fans that were sitting in the hotel bar area. Ariel had brought a restored impala with her but it was at the paint shop since they had a boo-boo driving it from Florida. The lock on the tarp that covered Baby scratched the paint off and they had to get it fixed. So we hung out and then a few people started gushing about an impala in the lot, so naturally I had to go look. As I'm leaving the hotel I just about plowed over Gabriel Tigerman. HAH! He's so adorable. I almost hit him and was like OMG.. oh hi! and he just grinned and said hi back. I apologized for almost running him over then told him to have a good night, not wanting to impose on him trying to get checked in. He's such a doll.
Swooned over the other impala that was outside for a bit then eventually I was tired and headed upstairs to bed. Friday morning was good times!
Our trip started on Thursday because Ria and I drove down to Texas then. Hah. We got a late start because we had to wait for Archiver's (a scrap booking store) to open since we needed to print a photo that Ria was going to have signed. Neither of our printers are awesome like that, so we have to pay. BOO. However, we got to the DMV on time and I was able to update my driver licenses, and Ria got her Missouri one and also registered to vote in Missouri. Woohoo! So after we got the licenses and the picture, off we went. We headed through Kansas and even though her GPS was being a fucktard she just went her own way and I kept my mouth shut because I didn't know where I was going and I feel like if I try to get my input in during driving someplace I really should have just kept my mouth shut. :\ I'm no good at directions and every time we end up using her phone's GPS it puts us in whothefuckknowsville. But anyway.. we made it.
So sometime in Oklahoma we switched and I drove through Tulsa and down into Texas while Ria slept. Wasn't too bad of a drive, some idiots and I had to get used to a much bigger car, but it was normal I think. Didn't get pulled over so that was good. We switched back so Ria was driving the closer we got to Dallas. I'm not a fan of driving in new places and she would probably murder me if I was driving then anyway. So it was just better for both our sakes. XD Anyway.. we're almost to Dallas then we hit traffic and basically stop. UGH. It was so bad..we had like 20 minutes left and it took us twice that time to get through the city and to the hotel. IT WAS HORRIBLE. And then while we were waiting, I looked out the windows and see.. birds. Lots. Of. Birds. Seriously, it was horrifying how many birds there were! On the electric lines, on the fences, EVERYWHERE BIRDS!
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BIIIIIIRRRRDDDSSS!!!
Finally we made it down to the part of town where the Westin was. I could see it.. it was SO CLOSE! Then at long last we're there, and find out we have to pay for parking. This hotel had so many problems with hidden fees, it wasn't funny. We haul our stuff inside, I get us checked in and then we head upstairs. I'm thinking, hey for $110 a night we're gonna get a fridge, microwave and tv and wifi! WOO! But I was so wrong. About two weeks before I found out that wifi isn't free unless you're in the lobby or standing on the second floor balcony hanging over the lobby. -____- There was no fridge in the room, and no microwave. There was a crappy tv, a teeny tiny safe and a recycle bin however! Because by some off chance I might have a plastic bottle in the room with me to throw in that blue container. Ugh. We had bought milk for our breakfast and brought cereal and yogurt with us and there is no fridge, so we fandangled ourselves one out of using two trash cans and filling em with ice. Didn't work that well, but it helped at least. The milk was sour by Sunday morning. UGH.
Besides the asinine room amenities, it was a pretty nice room. Beds weren't as big as I imagined, but eh whatever. We got settled, grabbed something to eat and I think we registered since they had it set up for people to do so. I think we also wandered around the vendors that were already set up. Ria went upstairs for a while and I roamed around downstairs with my birthday cards to get people to sign them and I ended up meeting Ariel, Mindy, Emily, Alestra, Tina and more fans that were sitting in the hotel bar area. Ariel had brought a restored impala with her but it was at the paint shop since they had a boo-boo driving it from Florida. The lock on the tarp that covered Baby scratched the paint off and they had to get it fixed. So we hung out and then a few people started gushing about an impala in the lot, so naturally I had to go look. As I'm leaving the hotel I just about plowed over Gabriel Tigerman. HAH! He's so adorable. I almost hit him and was like OMG.. oh hi! and he just grinned and said hi back. I apologized for almost running him over then told him to have a good night, not wanting to impose on him trying to get checked in. He's such a doll.
Swooned over the other impala that was outside for a bit then eventually I was tired and headed upstairs to bed. Friday morning was good times!
Monday, October 1, 2012
Supernatural DallasCon 2012
Holy. Shit. This was the best con yet. It was only my second, but still. BEST. ONE. YET. I'll give you a run down of the highlights..
- Chad Lindberg remembered me from my bday chat back in March. He singled me out during his panel while scanning the audience and looked at me for a second before going 'I know you..' and then gave me a grin and a wink. *dies*
- Gabriel Tigerman was much more than I expected. I love how the people on this show can make me excited and happy to meet them even when I'm not at first. He talked about "the world's largest prairie dog (but called it a ground hog)" which is about an hour from where I live. His story about it was HILARIOUS!
- Karaoke was the most fun I have ever had at karaoke. I EVEN SANG! Chad snatched my camera a few times, Ria and I got on stage and sang, then Chad stole my Ghostbuster's tie off of my neck, almost dragging me with it. It was so fantastic.
- Sebastian Roche is the dirtiest bastard I have ever met and he had me laughing so hard I was crying. We were also v-neck shirt twinsies that day, and it was fantastic to ask him a question and be dirty with him. Hah.
- Mark Sheppard was someone I was already having feelings for and after his panel and spending time with him during the cocktail party, he holds a piece of my heart with his snarkiness. <3
- Mark Pellegrino replaced Misha Collins at the last minute since Misha's wife was having a baby! Mark P. was amazing..totally sleep deprived and a little crazy at times, but he was so sweet! I loved meeting him. I even got to kiss him :D
- Matt and Richard were fantastic during their panel, as always. Got a few shots of them but they would not hold still. Which was the usual. Love my photos with them. :D
- Cocktail party on Saturday night was pretty awesome. Didn't drink because they were stupid expensive and I didn't have any cash anyway. But the handlers were pretty rude about the time restraints for each celebrity at the tables. Richard sat down and barely got to give an answer to the first question before she said it was time for him to move. Ugh. Then he spent a good five minutes at another table. Always irritating when that happens.
- J2 breakfast... so amazing. My table was fairly close and I was excited. Food was okay, glad I had something in my stomach though otherwise I probably would have thrown up at some point from excitement.
- Jared and Jensen's families were there! Both sets of parents and some siblings were there for the breakfast and during the photo ops and panel later in the day. :D
- Jared seemed either sleepy or quiet during the photo ops, but he was happy on stage.
- Jensen gave me back rubs. *DIES*
- Their panel was adorable.. very Disney inspired this time around. lol I also missed Richard's second panel of the weekend. :( Makes me sad I keep missing it but I had to stand in the long ass line for J2 photos!
- The hotel sucked ass. Details to come.
- The people were mostly fantastic. Some were freaks, others were bitches, but most were great and the new friends I made make me smile :D
So those were highlights. I will post other posts for each day, but I wanted to just get those out. I miss Dallas and I miss con..I'm hoping to go back next year.
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Angel
I've been meaning to post about the supernatural convention over the weekend but I've been in such an emotional bubble since I got home I've just wanted to sleep and dream about the weekend. I have really bad post-con blues this time around and it's just been sucky.
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Then today I got horrific news. One of my best friend's children passed away suddenly last night. No warning, no signs, just..gone. His name was Angel and now he is one. If you believe in that sort of thing. He was a darling little boy who always wanted attention and hugs and he really loved to laugh. He was so smart and witty and really full of energy. I'm going to miss his hugs and him yelling for me to come play with him. I only met him a few times but I always enjoyed his company, even when he was being a little pain. He used my iPod a few times as his own personal camera and I'll definitely keep those pictures now.
My thoughts are with my friend. So are my hugs and my love because her little family did not deserve to deal with such heartbreak and to explain to her youngest, who is 3, about what death is and why her Angel won't be coming home from the hospital again.
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Then today I got horrific news. One of my best friend's children passed away suddenly last night. No warning, no signs, just..gone. His name was Angel and now he is one. If you believe in that sort of thing. He was a darling little boy who always wanted attention and hugs and he really loved to laugh. He was so smart and witty and really full of energy. I'm going to miss his hugs and him yelling for me to come play with him. I only met him a few times but I always enjoyed his company, even when he was being a little pain. He used my iPod a few times as his own personal camera and I'll definitely keep those pictures now.
My thoughts are with my friend. So are my hugs and my love because her little family did not deserve to deal with such heartbreak and to explain to her youngest, who is 3, about what death is and why her Angel won't be coming home from the hospital again.
RIP Angel. You will be sorely missed.
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Two days
We leave for Dallas in two days. SO EXCITED!!!!!
I make an appointment for Ria and I to get manicures tonight. Stoked about that. It'll be weird having someone else messing with my hands and painting them. I've never been on the receiving end of that kind of stuff, I'm always the one painting someone elses nails and my own. :] I can't wait to see how they look. We're getting french manicures for the weekend. I just hope that my nails are good enough to get the right look and don't look half-assed or something. ><
Steve Carlson's new album became available to buy today online. Oh dear god it is so beautiful. Jensen is featured in one of the songs, playing and singing in it and it just makes me swooooooooooooon.
I wasn't really planning on trying to say anything to Jensen and Jared during the panel. Well.. I was, then thought better of it, but now I'm undecided because I really love this song. I especially love the line "All your 'secret wishes' could right now be coming true" it's really beautiful and haunting. Guh. Love it.
My button for Misha is still MIA. *grump* I'm really irritated about it. Also. My glasses are MIA because some little turd (Priestly) decided to have a spazz at like 5:30 this morning and ran over me and my bedside table and I heard them clatter but didn't realize they fell in the floor. They're probably under my bed somewhere since I can't see them around the table, but I'm gonna find em. I'm going to try and start packing some stuff up. Bathroom type stuff with make up and everything and some clothes that I don't plan on wearing this week. I just need..some motivation.
Okay..so TMI Tuesday is gonna follow. No one reads this but me, but if someone stumbles upon this and you don't want TMI then don't keep reading. lol You've been warned.
It's been a week of firsts and stuff...well sort of. It'll be the first time I've been to Oklahoma and Texas on our trip this weekend. I also uh.. well, this is personal, but I used a tampon for the first time ever this week. Totally weird. It's something I've never been comfortable dealing with or doing, so I've avoided it. But with getting older and having heavy flows to begin with, and traveling and wanting to have a good time I figured it was a good time to finally bite the bullet and do it. Try it at least and just see how it goes. Like I said, totally weird. Slightly uncomfortable but not in a bad way. I just know something's THERE. Hah..mentioned this to mom earlier and she's like 'practice makes perfect' so.. yeah, guess I'll keep it up and see how it goes this week while at home and on the road to Dallas.
So now that TMI Tuesday is out of the way..haha. I gotta get dressed and start packing some stuff :D
I make an appointment for Ria and I to get manicures tonight. Stoked about that. It'll be weird having someone else messing with my hands and painting them. I've never been on the receiving end of that kind of stuff, I'm always the one painting someone elses nails and my own. :] I can't wait to see how they look. We're getting french manicures for the weekend. I just hope that my nails are good enough to get the right look and don't look half-assed or something. ><
Steve Carlson's new album became available to buy today online. Oh dear god it is so beautiful. Jensen is featured in one of the songs, playing and singing in it and it just makes me swooooooooooooon.
Click to play and be amazed! <3 <3 <3
I wasn't really planning on trying to say anything to Jensen and Jared during the panel. Well.. I was, then thought better of it, but now I'm undecided because I really love this song. I especially love the line "All your 'secret wishes' could right now be coming true" it's really beautiful and haunting. Guh. Love it.
My button for Misha is still MIA. *grump* I'm really irritated about it. Also. My glasses are MIA because some little turd (Priestly) decided to have a spazz at like 5:30 this morning and ran over me and my bedside table and I heard them clatter but didn't realize they fell in the floor. They're probably under my bed somewhere since I can't see them around the table, but I'm gonna find em. I'm going to try and start packing some stuff up. Bathroom type stuff with make up and everything and some clothes that I don't plan on wearing this week. I just need..some motivation.
Okay..so TMI Tuesday is gonna follow. No one reads this but me, but if someone stumbles upon this and you don't want TMI then don't keep reading. lol You've been warned.
It's been a week of firsts and stuff...well sort of. It'll be the first time I've been to Oklahoma and Texas on our trip this weekend. I also uh.. well, this is personal, but I used a tampon for the first time ever this week. Totally weird. It's something I've never been comfortable dealing with or doing, so I've avoided it. But with getting older and having heavy flows to begin with, and traveling and wanting to have a good time I figured it was a good time to finally bite the bullet and do it. Try it at least and just see how it goes. Like I said, totally weird. Slightly uncomfortable but not in a bad way. I just know something's THERE. Hah..mentioned this to mom earlier and she's like 'practice makes perfect' so.. yeah, guess I'll keep it up and see how it goes this week while at home and on the road to Dallas.
So now that TMI Tuesday is out of the way..haha. I gotta get dressed and start packing some stuff :D
Sunday, September 16, 2012
It's finally here!
The week that Ria and I go to Dallas and see Jared, Jensen, Misha, Chad, Mark S, Sebastian, Matt, Richard and Gabe again! Well, we'll be meeting Mark S, Sebastian and Gabe for the first time but seeing everyone else again. :D I'm so excited. It's really getting to me, like my chest keeps getting these little tight sensations that I get when I'm excited or nervous about something. Weeee!
I seem to have lost my button for Misha. Dammit. I know I stuck it somewhere since I moved here. I know because I've shown it to Ria a few times. It's in here someplace..I know it is. But I have found Matt's card. I don't know if I've mentioned it before but whew, glad I did.
Ria and I went shopping Friday night. Oops. We each got new shirts to wear to Dallas. And some earrings and I got a butterfly necklace that was paired up to a set of studs so that was cool. I really like it, it's so cute. I also finally figured out how to style my hair without me thinking it looks like absolute shit. And I tried a new way to wear make up today. SUCCESS FOR LOOKING CUTE!
But yeah..besides that, it's been a good day. Finished my psychology class, I'm done with classes til the 20th, then I'll have to bust out some crap Thursday night to get it going for the weekend if anything is actually due over the weekend. I hope it isn't, but my luck, it will be. BOO. I will have American Art History and Advanced Illustration until Oct 27th. Then I have only 4 more classes after. SO EXCITING TO BE ALMOST FINISHED.
And to bounce back to another subject, Ria and I went to World's of Fun's HAUNT tonight and boy, it was awesome. The lines weren't much to like and the annoying kids who kept yelling at every person in costume that came near them to "high-five me!" almost got a high-five to the face from me. I really can't stand little irritations like that. Many of the workers ignored them anyway, so I'm glad I wasn't the only one annoyed. Sheesh kids. But other than the annoying kids, long lines, and the overly used fog machines, it was pretty good. I was afraid I wasn't going to actually get scared in these things, but I totally did. Many times. Screamed all the way through and Ria was clinging to me the entire time. I'm just glad she didn't grab onto my bruise on my arm..that woulda sucked. I expected more people to be wandering around in costume for the park, but they kept to little spaces. The best part of the night though, was the show. It was called Blood Drums and it was this trio of drummers who were dressed up and using barrels and metal drums for their instruments. They were super nice and we got a picture with them afterwards and I got a hug from the cute one with the mohawk. Ria has that pic on her phone, so I'll have to get it from her tomorrow and edit it a bit if I can. I hope so. Stupid fog and crap. But the cute mohawk guy complemented my butterfly necklace. XD Me likey. It made me feel good, even if it was a compliment for the necklace and not my looks.
Sooooo..other than that it's been mellow-ish. Dealt with stupid people for work and school, got sick earlier this week and spent all day sleeping, and am now hungry again. BOO. I can't wait for this weekend and I hope I'm not overwhelmed with junk to have fun. Paid too much to be distracted by bad crap. GAH! We leave Thursday..SO EXCITING PEOPLE! :D :D :D
I seem to have lost my button for Misha. Dammit. I know I stuck it somewhere since I moved here. I know because I've shown it to Ria a few times. It's in here someplace..I know it is. But I have found Matt's card. I don't know if I've mentioned it before but whew, glad I did.
Ria and I went shopping Friday night. Oops. We each got new shirts to wear to Dallas. And some earrings and I got a butterfly necklace that was paired up to a set of studs so that was cool. I really like it, it's so cute. I also finally figured out how to style my hair without me thinking it looks like absolute shit. And I tried a new way to wear make up today. SUCCESS FOR LOOKING CUTE!
D'aww.. I look kind of cute here.
But yeah..besides that, it's been a good day. Finished my psychology class, I'm done with classes til the 20th, then I'll have to bust out some crap Thursday night to get it going for the weekend if anything is actually due over the weekend. I hope it isn't, but my luck, it will be. BOO. I will have American Art History and Advanced Illustration until Oct 27th. Then I have only 4 more classes after. SO EXCITING TO BE ALMOST FINISHED.
And to bounce back to another subject, Ria and I went to World's of Fun's HAUNT tonight and boy, it was awesome. The lines weren't much to like and the annoying kids who kept yelling at every person in costume that came near them to "high-five me!" almost got a high-five to the face from me. I really can't stand little irritations like that. Many of the workers ignored them anyway, so I'm glad I wasn't the only one annoyed. Sheesh kids. But other than the annoying kids, long lines, and the overly used fog machines, it was pretty good. I was afraid I wasn't going to actually get scared in these things, but I totally did. Many times. Screamed all the way through and Ria was clinging to me the entire time. I'm just glad she didn't grab onto my bruise on my arm..that woulda sucked. I expected more people to be wandering around in costume for the park, but they kept to little spaces. The best part of the night though, was the show. It was called Blood Drums and it was this trio of drummers who were dressed up and using barrels and metal drums for their instruments. They were super nice and we got a picture with them afterwards and I got a hug from the cute one with the mohawk. Ria has that pic on her phone, so I'll have to get it from her tomorrow and edit it a bit if I can. I hope so. Stupid fog and crap. But the cute mohawk guy complemented my butterfly necklace. XD Me likey. It made me feel good, even if it was a compliment for the necklace and not my looks.
Sooooo..other than that it's been mellow-ish. Dealt with stupid people for work and school, got sick earlier this week and spent all day sleeping, and am now hungry again. BOO. I can't wait for this weekend and I hope I'm not overwhelmed with junk to have fun. Paid too much to be distracted by bad crap. GAH! We leave Thursday..SO EXCITING PEOPLE! :D :D :D
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Irritation
Obviously I'm not a skinny person. For anyone who knows me, I wore a single digit pant back in 8th grade and after that my waistline just kept expanding because food was my comfort when I was humiliated and picked on at school every other day. So I get it, I KNOW that I'm big, and to top if off, I know for a fact that my boobs are gigantor. We don't need a play by play, nor do I need you to tell me DAMN! when you see them for the first time.
I'm irriated tonight because at World's of Fun I got on the ride Thunderhawk with Ria. I sat on the end where they generally like to put larger riders because it has a wider seat. Tonight we start to get strapped in, the over-head bar comes down, but the bottom one doesn't. Then the car makes a noise and the over-head bars go back up and here comes the skinny dude who let us on.
"Ma'am, it appears that you are too large for the ride."
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Are you serious? My reply was this "Well that's bullshit because I've been riding this ride most of the summer." I get up in a huff, put my glasses on and look over at Ria who was asking 'what is it?' and I say loud enough for the rest of the people in line and on the ride to hear "Apparently I'm suddenly too fat to ride this ride, so do you want to get off with me?" and after that I stomped past the guy, if he said anything, I didn't hear him but really, what could the jerk say? I shove the gate open and just leave, Ria ends up following behind me in a rage as well. I'm embarrassed and flustered, because I haven't been told in YEARS that 'you're too fat' for an honest to god reason, and now, when I've been losing weight all summer long, and on a ride I've ridden a handful of times in the last month alone, I'm suddenly too fat. THERE IS NO LOGIC THERE.
Ugh. I'm just.. UGH. If I had gained weight, if I had to buy new pants or new underwear, then fine, I could understand that because I haven't been to that park in about a month, but not under these circumstances. Ria found a manager and we explained what happened. He was a bigger guy, not fat but just bigger, and he was understanding. He kept asking what I wanted him to do, to go yell at them, to demand they let me ride it, file a complaint(even though he really didn't want me to do that.. hah) or whatever I wanted. And I have no idea what I wanted.. a sorry? A 'you look pretty'? *sigh* So I just told him I don't know, there's not a lot they can do really since he was the games manager (games were right next to this ride). So he apologized, the girl in the arcade area apologized as well and said it was stupid that they do things like that.
*SIIIIIIIIIIIIGH* I just wanna punch something to get it out of my system. Either that or have a cry about how fat I am. Kind of torn how to feel about it. I was embarrassed and hurt and just irritated mostly, but then having to talk to a manager made it slightly worse and better at the same time. :\ I know Ria wanted to complain because she was really upset about it, and I love her for it because I don't like having to complain about my weight being commented on to someone who's skinny and probably five years younger than me. Thankfully that wasn't the case at all because he was really understanding.
But yeah.. end rant for that. Then I realized that my messed up tooth has gotten worse. A piece actually chipped off earlier. I think I actually felt it/crunched it while I was eating dinner at Bandana's.. ew. >< But I am gonna have to suck it up and go to a dentist next week or call at least to see if they can do something about it and how much it'd cost. :\ I also need to take my other pair of glasses to America's Best and have them fuck with them because I really wanna wear them but they sit crooked! :(
Only a week left til the Dallas convention! SO EXCITED! Gotta get everything ready.. eeee!
I'm irriated tonight because at World's of Fun I got on the ride Thunderhawk with Ria. I sat on the end where they generally like to put larger riders because it has a wider seat. Tonight we start to get strapped in, the over-head bar comes down, but the bottom one doesn't. Then the car makes a noise and the over-head bars go back up and here comes the skinny dude who let us on.
"Ma'am, it appears that you are too large for the ride."
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Are you serious? My reply was this "Well that's bullshit because I've been riding this ride most of the summer." I get up in a huff, put my glasses on and look over at Ria who was asking 'what is it?' and I say loud enough for the rest of the people in line and on the ride to hear "Apparently I'm suddenly too fat to ride this ride, so do you want to get off with me?" and after that I stomped past the guy, if he said anything, I didn't hear him but really, what could the jerk say? I shove the gate open and just leave, Ria ends up following behind me in a rage as well. I'm embarrassed and flustered, because I haven't been told in YEARS that 'you're too fat' for an honest to god reason, and now, when I've been losing weight all summer long, and on a ride I've ridden a handful of times in the last month alone, I'm suddenly too fat. THERE IS NO LOGIC THERE.
Ugh. I'm just.. UGH. If I had gained weight, if I had to buy new pants or new underwear, then fine, I could understand that because I haven't been to that park in about a month, but not under these circumstances. Ria found a manager and we explained what happened. He was a bigger guy, not fat but just bigger, and he was understanding. He kept asking what I wanted him to do, to go yell at them, to demand they let me ride it, file a complaint(even though he really didn't want me to do that.. hah) or whatever I wanted. And I have no idea what I wanted.. a sorry? A 'you look pretty'? *sigh* So I just told him I don't know, there's not a lot they can do really since he was the games manager (games were right next to this ride). So he apologized, the girl in the arcade area apologized as well and said it was stupid that they do things like that.
*SIIIIIIIIIIIIGH* I just wanna punch something to get it out of my system. Either that or have a cry about how fat I am. Kind of torn how to feel about it. I was embarrassed and hurt and just irritated mostly, but then having to talk to a manager made it slightly worse and better at the same time. :\ I know Ria wanted to complain because she was really upset about it, and I love her for it because I don't like having to complain about my weight being commented on to someone who's skinny and probably five years younger than me. Thankfully that wasn't the case at all because he was really understanding.
But yeah.. end rant for that. Then I realized that my messed up tooth has gotten worse. A piece actually chipped off earlier. I think I actually felt it/crunched it while I was eating dinner at Bandana's.. ew. >< But I am gonna have to suck it up and go to a dentist next week or call at least to see if they can do something about it and how much it'd cost. :\ I also need to take my other pair of glasses to America's Best and have them fuck with them because I really wanna wear them but they sit crooked! :(
Only a week left til the Dallas convention! SO EXCITED! Gotta get everything ready.. eeee!
Friday, September 7, 2012
This fandom is full of morons.
There. I said it outloud on the internet. The Supernatural fandom is chock full of morons. Idiots who can't seem to navigate the internet well enough to find information on their own and have to ask every question under the sun except for if the actors wipe their own asses or not, but they can continuous post question after question that's been answered ten-fold on that same page. Basically this is a rant about groups on Facebook.
I just really cannot stand people who don't look for information on their own or have to blow my mind that they actually have the ability to breathe because they sure as hell don't have any other skills. Jesus. Ugh.
I just really cannot stand people who don't look for information on their own or have to blow my mind that they actually have the ability to breathe because they sure as hell don't have any other skills. Jesus. Ugh.
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Meeting the Bug
Haven't blogged in a few days, but it's been pretty busy lately. Thursday consisted of me banging out projects for class and my job and trying to pack and hopefully sleep to be ready for the drive we were going to do Friday night. Needless to say, neither of us got enough sleep Thursday night/Friday day(for me) to really be totally alert on the drive.
Where were we going? Well I can't remember if I mentioned it before or not, but Ria and I were heading to Colorado in order to see her family there and to meet baby Aubrey for the first time. She was born July 19, 2012 and is Ria's niece which in turn makes her my niece by proxy. XD Which, I love. It makes me feel special, since my only other chance to be an aunt would be if my sister has kids at some point or if my friend Katie has them. Sis wants them at some point and Katie is trying for one now as far as I know, so maybe I'll be an aunt again next year? lol
So we were heading to the gas station so I could pay for gas to fill up the tank before we left and then I made a superbly shitty discovery. My paycheck from the Friday before had bounced and been returned so I had a negative $200 balance in my bank account. I was livid. This isn't the first time it's happened, and I'm sure it won't be the last, but every time it does, it always seems to screw me and only me there. Maybe it's just because I'm not in the building in person, but man, it sucks. So I had to move $300 from my savings account(which was there because of a stipend and had been planned on having for a nest egg/to pay my school bills) and then it was depleted so I could cover all of the pending transactions that were fucked up by the check. I ended up buying one 3/4 tank of gas the entire trip and little snacky things for myself on the ride back. I felt like an idiot the entire time, being broke and even more so than I intended because of me having to use my savings to cover shit. UGH. This makes me want a new job even more so than I already did, this really isn't the way someone is supposed to be treated.
And the best part is, whenever I mentioned this to the boss, he acts like its my fault. Like I tell my bank to fuck up and not put the money in or that I didn't sign a check or something. Hello?! As it were, like every. other. time. it came out to be that he had insufficient funds. Go figure. -__- So thankfully today I got the returned check in the mail and I redeposited it, so tomorrow I should be able to start transferring the $300 back into my savings where it belongs. UGH. I hate money.
Now back to the main story besides that little tangent... Ria drove out of KC because it was pouring rain, dark and just plain shitty. After finding out I was broke to the max, I fumed for about an hour and she grumped because of idiots in the road. We switched off at some point after the turnpike in Kansas so I could drive. Drove til about 11pm when we stopped in Hays, KS. (Pretty sure it was Hays) and ate dinner before continuing onto Colby. Once at the hotel we crashed and then were up early, got breakfast and off we went to Colorado Springs.
We got there around 1pm MST and there was the little bug.. Christi met us out front and inside Christopher had the baby. She's soooo stinkin' CUTE. I was kind of nervous about holding the baby, because hey, there's a lot of boobage here and not a lot of space to put things that are that small. I managed somehow, and just hope she continues to like me as she grows up. Ria got to hold Aubrey first, which was totally warranted while I kind of hovered and stayed back to give them all time to chat and whatever about the baby. I was starting to feel a little crappy by then but ignored it. Everytime I go to Colorado I tend to get altitude sickness and just feel bleh. Last year when I was there in July I did everything but actually pass out at the Royal Gorge. 6,800ft just isn't my friend, man. I like my low-land state.
I got to hold her before other family members showed up and she was passed around and fed and it was fun just to hang out. We stayed there for a while and then Ria's parents showed up and it was a lot of fun seeing them. Hugs all around! I kept joking that I was all set for the baby to puke on me this weekend, because of Anja's mess and Ria throwing up at the party, why not have baby puke to round out the month of August? lol Luckily for me, I came through the weekend clean of barf! WOO!
We went out to dinner Saturday night with Ria's mom, Christopher and Christi and the baby at Red Robin and the burger I had was so friggin delicious. It was the A1 Peppercorn burger.
After that, we parted ways and went back to the hotel to sleep and for me to do my homework. I took a shower after that and went to sleep. Sunday was not so fun at first. I woke up feeling pretty shitty. The altitude was setting in but after laying around a bit longer while Ria went with her mom and Christi to the store I got up and they picked me up to go to Christi's house and hang out for a while. Ria's dad had kidney stones last week, still has one now actually, but he had one removed on Friday so he wasn't feeling good at all and was pretty much stuck in bed all weekend. :( It was sad but I know he'll feel so much better after having surgery for the second one next week. But we were at Christi's for a while with talk of going to see the balloon glow later that night. Her friends were coming into town as well. Her friend Leah and her brother Rusty, who are a couple, with a 5 yr old named Aiden. Aiden was alright, little loud and stuff but most kids are and Leah and Rusty leave much to be desired. I don't want to hang around them again if I don't have to. Urgh. Anyway, I was feeling kind of bleh, while Christi went to meet them when they got into town I went back to the hotel to work on homework and lay down for a while and Ria and her mom went to the dog park with the dogs.
I watched some crime shows after finishing homework and then watched a bit of Big Brother before we went back to Christi and Christopher's for the balloon glow. Christi had the bright idea of parking where she worked and walking to this place, which she said was only a few blocks. Few blocks my ass. It was like forever away and I was getting light headed and winded while walking. I hurt, my head hurt and at times I felt like I couldn't breathe right but I didn't complain. Just kept my head down to focus on where my feet were going and followed the rest of them. It ended up to be a long walk in vain because the damn balloon glow ended right before we got there because of a damn wind shift! >:( ARGH.
So after that, we went to Applebee's for dinner, I felt better after getting food in me and water. I got a lot of baby snuggles there too while I waited for my own food.
After dinner, Christi packed Aubrey up and she promptly barfed all over herself and the car seat. lol Gross baby but I was saved! Woo! Back to the hotel we went and I was laying in bed talking to Ria and the next thing I know is that her phone was playing her alarm and I was awake waiting for my turn to shower. I got on Facebook, like every obsessed person does, and saw this:
Hehe.. so after we were showered and packed we went to hang out at Christi and Christopher's for a few hours longer til we had to leave. We had awesome baby time, snuggles, fed her, and Ria and I even changed two diapers! Christi wasn't around since she had a MASSIVE migraine so she was laying in bed for most of our visit. Mo came over finally to say bye to everyone and rest there for a bit. Ria and I headed out sometime after 1..which was an hour after our plan. Boo. We got Panera for lunch and we headed back to Missouri.
We stopped at an antique store in Raham, CO..which was neat. There were a few railroad lanterns and lamps there that I wanted, but they were several hundred dollars. Fluffy was a pain during the trip for a while so he got to lay in the back for a good chunk of the ride. All in all, with a few other stops we made it home around 12:45am and unpacked the back seat and flopped into bed. lol It was an awesome trip, save the altitude sickness but that baby was totally worth it. I can't wait to see her grow with pictures and videos and to see her again at Christmas time. :D
Where were we going? Well I can't remember if I mentioned it before or not, but Ria and I were heading to Colorado in order to see her family there and to meet baby Aubrey for the first time. She was born July 19, 2012 and is Ria's niece which in turn makes her my niece by proxy. XD Which, I love. It makes me feel special, since my only other chance to be an aunt would be if my sister has kids at some point or if my friend Katie has them. Sis wants them at some point and Katie is trying for one now as far as I know, so maybe I'll be an aunt again next year? lol
So we were heading to the gas station so I could pay for gas to fill up the tank before we left and then I made a superbly shitty discovery. My paycheck from the Friday before had bounced and been returned so I had a negative $200 balance in my bank account. I was livid. This isn't the first time it's happened, and I'm sure it won't be the last, but every time it does, it always seems to screw me and only me there. Maybe it's just because I'm not in the building in person, but man, it sucks. So I had to move $300 from my savings account(which was there because of a stipend and had been planned on having for a nest egg/to pay my school bills) and then it was depleted so I could cover all of the pending transactions that were fucked up by the check. I ended up buying one 3/4 tank of gas the entire trip and little snacky things for myself on the ride back. I felt like an idiot the entire time, being broke and even more so than I intended because of me having to use my savings to cover shit. UGH. This makes me want a new job even more so than I already did, this really isn't the way someone is supposed to be treated.
And the best part is, whenever I mentioned this to the boss, he acts like its my fault. Like I tell my bank to fuck up and not put the money in or that I didn't sign a check or something. Hello?! As it were, like every. other. time. it came out to be that he had insufficient funds. Go figure. -__- So thankfully today I got the returned check in the mail and I redeposited it, so tomorrow I should be able to start transferring the $300 back into my savings where it belongs. UGH. I hate money.
Now back to the main story besides that little tangent... Ria drove out of KC because it was pouring rain, dark and just plain shitty. After finding out I was broke to the max, I fumed for about an hour and she grumped because of idiots in the road. We switched off at some point after the turnpike in Kansas so I could drive. Drove til about 11pm when we stopped in Hays, KS. (Pretty sure it was Hays) and ate dinner before continuing onto Colby. Once at the hotel we crashed and then were up early, got breakfast and off we went to Colorado Springs.
We got there around 1pm MST and there was the little bug.. Christi met us out front and inside Christopher had the baby. She's soooo stinkin' CUTE. I was kind of nervous about holding the baby, because hey, there's a lot of boobage here and not a lot of space to put things that are that small. I managed somehow, and just hope she continues to like me as she grows up. Ria got to hold Aubrey first, which was totally warranted while I kind of hovered and stayed back to give them all time to chat and whatever about the baby. I was starting to feel a little crappy by then but ignored it. Everytime I go to Colorado I tend to get altitude sickness and just feel bleh. Last year when I was there in July I did everything but actually pass out at the Royal Gorge. 6,800ft just isn't my friend, man. I like my low-land state.
I got to hold her before other family members showed up and she was passed around and fed and it was fun just to hang out. We stayed there for a while and then Ria's parents showed up and it was a lot of fun seeing them. Hugs all around! I kept joking that I was all set for the baby to puke on me this weekend, because of Anja's mess and Ria throwing up at the party, why not have baby puke to round out the month of August? lol Luckily for me, I came through the weekend clean of barf! WOO!
We went out to dinner Saturday night with Ria's mom, Christopher and Christi and the baby at Red Robin and the burger I had was so friggin delicious. It was the A1 Peppercorn burger.
^ this totally explains the deliciousness that this burger was.
After that, we parted ways and went back to the hotel to sleep and for me to do my homework. I took a shower after that and went to sleep. Sunday was not so fun at first. I woke up feeling pretty shitty. The altitude was setting in but after laying around a bit longer while Ria went with her mom and Christi to the store I got up and they picked me up to go to Christi's house and hang out for a while. Ria's dad had kidney stones last week, still has one now actually, but he had one removed on Friday so he wasn't feeling good at all and was pretty much stuck in bed all weekend. :( It was sad but I know he'll feel so much better after having surgery for the second one next week. But we were at Christi's for a while with talk of going to see the balloon glow later that night. Her friends were coming into town as well. Her friend Leah and her brother Rusty, who are a couple, with a 5 yr old named Aiden. Aiden was alright, little loud and stuff but most kids are and Leah and Rusty leave much to be desired. I don't want to hang around them again if I don't have to. Urgh. Anyway, I was feeling kind of bleh, while Christi went to meet them when they got into town I went back to the hotel to work on homework and lay down for a while and Ria and her mom went to the dog park with the dogs.
I watched some crime shows after finishing homework and then watched a bit of Big Brother before we went back to Christi and Christopher's for the balloon glow. Christi had the bright idea of parking where she worked and walking to this place, which she said was only a few blocks. Few blocks my ass. It was like forever away and I was getting light headed and winded while walking. I hurt, my head hurt and at times I felt like I couldn't breathe right but I didn't complain. Just kept my head down to focus on where my feet were going and followed the rest of them. It ended up to be a long walk in vain because the damn balloon glow ended right before we got there because of a damn wind shift! >:( ARGH.
So after that, we went to Applebee's for dinner, I felt better after getting food in me and water. I got a lot of baby snuggles there too while I waited for my own food.
She was watching all of the lights and being totally enthralled by them.
Baby snuggles <3
After dinner, Christi packed Aubrey up and she promptly barfed all over herself and the car seat. lol Gross baby but I was saved! Woo! Back to the hotel we went and I was laying in bed talking to Ria and the next thing I know is that her phone was playing her alarm and I was awake waiting for my turn to shower. I got on Facebook, like every obsessed person does, and saw this:
LOL Ria took it and posted it on FB. I laughed so hard. XD
Hehe.. so after we were showered and packed we went to hang out at Christi and Christopher's for a few hours longer til we had to leave. We had awesome baby time, snuggles, fed her, and Ria and I even changed two diapers! Christi wasn't around since she had a MASSIVE migraine so she was laying in bed for most of our visit. Mo came over finally to say bye to everyone and rest there for a bit. Ria and I headed out sometime after 1..which was an hour after our plan. Boo. We got Panera for lunch and we headed back to Missouri.
We stopped at an antique store in Raham, CO..which was neat. There were a few railroad lanterns and lamps there that I wanted, but they were several hundred dollars. Fluffy was a pain during the trip for a while so he got to lay in the back for a good chunk of the ride. All in all, with a few other stops we made it home around 12:45am and unpacked the back seat and flopped into bed. lol It was an awesome trip, save the altitude sickness but that baby was totally worth it. I can't wait to see her grow with pictures and videos and to see her again at Christmas time. :D
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Somehow I missed it was Wednesday...
Yeah. Totally thought it was still Tuesday. lol Even though I remember seeing "Tuesday! Pig N' A Poke!" all day yesterday, I still thought today was Tuesday too... god dammit Gabriel, don't stick me in a time loop!
Anywhosits..I got a lot accomplished last night. A lot of work for my job and today I replied like I need to for class. I just really need to start on homework that's due this weekend and do my damn laundry. I also need to get my glasses fixed. I really want to wear them, they're so cute and nerdy!
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Not much happened today..couldn't sleep again and ended up drifting off after Ria left for work again. Slept for about two hours and then was awake because of that and Ria was texting me. Apparently this weekend, while we're in Colorado, Christi's family is going to show up as well. Which..definitely was NOT planned and isn't really wanted either. :\ I'm afraid that since no one knows me..I'm probably just going to be 'Shanti's friend' and I'll be over looked to spend time with the baby completely. Ria says she won't stand for it, and I'm sure she won't but she's already on edge about everything else and I hate seeing her get upset over things like this. It's just not good for her. Meh
So we'll see how that goes I suppose. Hopefully things won't be as bad as I anticipate :\ On a lighter note, on a trip I took to Memphis with mom, sis and Kyle this past July I got post cards as souvenirs. I ended up getting two Graceland ones since we were there (the rest are all Elvis related..hah go figure XD) and I sent one up to Vancouver to the set of Supernatural. The fans organized this thing about sending postcards to them to welcome the cast and crew back for Season 8. I realized the other day that a lady who works as part of the crew was taking pictures of the postcards they received and they got mine :D
Made me happy to see it, and I hope they enjoyed my story with it. I wrote on the back saying how I thought this was appropriate because while in Graceland I caught two orbs on my camera while in the Jungle Room. The audio tour said that was Elvis's favorite room and the large round chair in it was his favorite place to sit and play guitar. I caught an orb in the room and then one right in the chair, so that was awesome.
I'm bouncing around on topics here, but that's okay. It's how my brain works and since nothing really of import has happened all at once, I'm gonna keep bouncing til it does. :P
Anywhosits..I got a lot accomplished last night. A lot of work for my job and today I replied like I need to for class. I just really need to start on homework that's due this weekend and do my damn laundry. I also need to get my glasses fixed. I really want to wear them, they're so cute and nerdy!
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See? Totally nerdy. XD
Not much happened today..couldn't sleep again and ended up drifting off after Ria left for work again. Slept for about two hours and then was awake because of that and Ria was texting me. Apparently this weekend, while we're in Colorado, Christi's family is going to show up as well. Which..definitely was NOT planned and isn't really wanted either. :\ I'm afraid that since no one knows me..I'm probably just going to be 'Shanti's friend' and I'll be over looked to spend time with the baby completely. Ria says she won't stand for it, and I'm sure she won't but she's already on edge about everything else and I hate seeing her get upset over things like this. It's just not good for her. Meh
So we'll see how that goes I suppose. Hopefully things won't be as bad as I anticipate :\ On a lighter note, on a trip I took to Memphis with mom, sis and Kyle this past July I got post cards as souvenirs. I ended up getting two Graceland ones since we were there (the rest are all Elvis related..hah go figure XD) and I sent one up to Vancouver to the set of Supernatural. The fans organized this thing about sending postcards to them to welcome the cast and crew back for Season 8. I realized the other day that a lady who works as part of the crew was taking pictures of the postcards they received and they got mine :D
Mine is 4 rows down, 3 from the left next to the black one that's folded and hanging open. It has Elvis in his pink cadillac in front of Graceland on it. I was so excited to see it on the wall :D
Made me happy to see it, and I hope they enjoyed my story with it. I wrote on the back saying how I thought this was appropriate because while in Graceland I caught two orbs on my camera while in the Jungle Room. The audio tour said that was Elvis's favorite room and the large round chair in it was his favorite place to sit and play guitar. I caught an orb in the room and then one right in the chair, so that was awesome.
I'm bouncing around on topics here, but that's okay. It's how my brain works and since nothing really of import has happened all at once, I'm gonna keep bouncing til it does. :P
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Tired
I've been so tired lately.. I hide it well. Drink soda and eat sugar and I'm okay and then I hit a wall and for some stupid reason I'm usually in the middle of something so I drink more soda then I'm up all night.
I haven't been able to sleep properly for the last two weeks or so..I get these boughts of insomnia and sleepiness but I don't really know what to do about it. I've been slacking with work..I have no motivation for it. Ugh.
Today isn't any better.. barely slept last night, rolled around and then fell asleep for about four hours until my brain was like OKAY UP AND AT EM! My body's tired though, my eyes hurt like hell and I know I have all kinds of things to do before the weekend and it's taking a toll on me. UGH.
Also just to get it down. I got a call from my financial counselor today to talk about my last few classes I need to graduate. My money won't last til then.. or at least it wouldn't but now it does. I had to switch things around and enlongate my stay at AiPoD for another few months in order for it to work. I still have an outstanding balance though.. $762 to be exact. I'm now starting payments of $85 a month to pay it off in 9 months. Let's just hope I'll be able to do this every month..
What else.. oh, well I've lost my birthday card for Matt at the convention. I swear, I put shit in places I think I will remember and then it's gone *grump* I need to find that and start getting stuff together..I also need to do laundry, shower and pack for this weekend.
Totally in a grumpy mood and I just wanna sleep and not have responsibility for a little while...rawr.
I haven't been able to sleep properly for the last two weeks or so..I get these boughts of insomnia and sleepiness but I don't really know what to do about it. I've been slacking with work..I have no motivation for it. Ugh.
Today isn't any better.. barely slept last night, rolled around and then fell asleep for about four hours until my brain was like OKAY UP AND AT EM! My body's tired though, my eyes hurt like hell and I know I have all kinds of things to do before the weekend and it's taking a toll on me. UGH.
Also just to get it down. I got a call from my financial counselor today to talk about my last few classes I need to graduate. My money won't last til then.. or at least it wouldn't but now it does. I had to switch things around and enlongate my stay at AiPoD for another few months in order for it to work. I still have an outstanding balance though.. $762 to be exact. I'm now starting payments of $85 a month to pay it off in 9 months. Let's just hope I'll be able to do this every month..
What else.. oh, well I've lost my birthday card for Matt at the convention. I swear, I put shit in places I think I will remember and then it's gone *grump* I need to find that and start getting stuff together..I also need to do laundry, shower and pack for this weekend.
Totally in a grumpy mood and I just wanna sleep and not have responsibility for a little while...rawr.
Monday, August 27, 2012
Trying Again
So, I've created probably.. five different blogs in the last few years to try and jump start myself into doing it on a regular basis just so I can get my thoughts out about daily events or to remember events that happened recently. I have a Supernatural convention coming up in a few weeks, and I really want to write down everything about it so that I can relive it easier than I can the one from last year.
So here goes..
Over the weekend Ria and I went to a party at her bosses house. I was kind of nervous about it because meeting her co-workers would be kind of awkward, just like it is meeting new people in general. I've heard about them for months but had no idea what they'd look like or how they'd really act. Especially Blake, who's the gay one and apparently a self-named douchebag. I wasn't expecting much good from him, but he was fine. Everyone was really friendly and I can see myself hanging out with them again if I'm invited again. :] Her boss got drunk, hit on me, talked about my boobs and gave me a kiss on the cheek and so did her bosses wife's best friend. Hah. It was a fun time..until Ria got sick. Then it got kind of maudlin, but I knew it would since she'd been repeating that she deserves some time to get really fucked up, after everything that's happened. And yes, she does and I'm glad she did, but getting sick wasn't what I had in mind for that night. lol But over all, it was a good time, got home around 6am after eating Waffle House and then passed out til about 4pm. Good times.
Which leads me to another thing.. that's the second time I had to clean up puke in the month of August. lol Gross..I keep saying that I'm totally ready for this weekend now. Ria and I are going to Colorado to visit her niece, my niece by proxy, and I'm about 95% sure she will projectile vomit on me at some point. It's bound to happen. lol I really can't wait to see the baby though, I hope that she's old enough to be responsive and stuff. I'd assume she is, but she's barely over a month old..so we'll see. I also hope that I can hold her somewhat normally since my boobs get in the way. Feels like I'm already holding a baby most of the time. XD There's a lot to do before we go.. I have to catch up on work. I've been slacking so much lately and it's really not a good thing. I just don't have the motivation to do it and really would love a new job.
I keep looking for a job, I'm going to still look until I find something, but man is it disheartening. Being unable to pay my bills or pay rent or pay half of the normal bills like I should. It's just frustrating as hell. *sigh* Just gotta keep going.. something will come up. It's bound to, I'm not an idiot and I'm good at what I do.
I'll stop here for now, will try and post more often. I really want to do this just to get my thoughts out about stuff and get into it again. Hopefully I can. I have a list of things I need to do tomorrow so I need to go to sleep and get ready for it..
So here goes..
Over the weekend Ria and I went to a party at her bosses house. I was kind of nervous about it because meeting her co-workers would be kind of awkward, just like it is meeting new people in general. I've heard about them for months but had no idea what they'd look like or how they'd really act. Especially Blake, who's the gay one and apparently a self-named douchebag. I wasn't expecting much good from him, but he was fine. Everyone was really friendly and I can see myself hanging out with them again if I'm invited again. :] Her boss got drunk, hit on me, talked about my boobs and gave me a kiss on the cheek and so did her bosses wife's best friend. Hah. It was a fun time..until Ria got sick. Then it got kind of maudlin, but I knew it would since she'd been repeating that she deserves some time to get really fucked up, after everything that's happened. And yes, she does and I'm glad she did, but getting sick wasn't what I had in mind for that night. lol But over all, it was a good time, got home around 6am after eating Waffle House and then passed out til about 4pm. Good times.
Which leads me to another thing.. that's the second time I had to clean up puke in the month of August. lol Gross..I keep saying that I'm totally ready for this weekend now. Ria and I are going to Colorado to visit her niece, my niece by proxy, and I'm about 95% sure she will projectile vomit on me at some point. It's bound to happen. lol I really can't wait to see the baby though, I hope that she's old enough to be responsive and stuff. I'd assume she is, but she's barely over a month old..so we'll see. I also hope that I can hold her somewhat normally since my boobs get in the way. Feels like I'm already holding a baby most of the time. XD There's a lot to do before we go.. I have to catch up on work. I've been slacking so much lately and it's really not a good thing. I just don't have the motivation to do it and really would love a new job.
I keep looking for a job, I'm going to still look until I find something, but man is it disheartening. Being unable to pay my bills or pay rent or pay half of the normal bills like I should. It's just frustrating as hell. *sigh* Just gotta keep going.. something will come up. It's bound to, I'm not an idiot and I'm good at what I do.
I'll stop here for now, will try and post more often. I really want to do this just to get my thoughts out about stuff and get into it again. Hopefully I can. I have a list of things I need to do tomorrow so I need to go to sleep and get ready for it..
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