Hooly crap.. my life has been so fucking emtotional and crazy lately I can't even find the strength or the time to write here anymore. I've got a bunch of crap to put on here, but right now..eesh.
I'll be posting the rest of SPN con soon.. I really want to, you have no idea! And right now I have GISHWHES happening and that's just a whole other bucket of crazy.
One team member has pissed me off royally.. I really don't like her or her mediocre crap, but whatever if the rest of the team wants to submit it, fine.
So I'll be back.. I promise because I told myself this is what I wanted to do and it helps get all the bullshit outta my head. >< SOON, blog. SOON.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Supernatural DallasCon 2012 - Thursday
And now, almost two months later I am posting about the con. Tried to avoid it, didn't want to forget it and am lovingly going to recount what I can for myself and whomever wants to read this.
Our trip started on Thursday because Ria and I drove down to Texas then. Hah. We got a late start because we had to wait for Archiver's (a scrap booking store) to open since we needed to print a photo that Ria was going to have signed. Neither of our printers are awesome like that, so we have to pay. BOO. However, we got to the DMV on time and I was able to update my driver licenses, and Ria got her Missouri one and also registered to vote in Missouri. Woohoo! So after we got the licenses and the picture, off we went. We headed through Kansas and even though her GPS was being a fucktard she just went her own way and I kept my mouth shut because I didn't know where I was going and I feel like if I try to get my input in during driving someplace I really should have just kept my mouth shut. :\ I'm no good at directions and every time we end up using her phone's GPS it puts us in whothefuckknowsville. But anyway.. we made it.
So sometime in Oklahoma we switched and I drove through Tulsa and down into Texas while Ria slept. Wasn't too bad of a drive, some idiots and I had to get used to a much bigger car, but it was normal I think. Didn't get pulled over so that was good. We switched back so Ria was driving the closer we got to Dallas. I'm not a fan of driving in new places and she would probably murder me if I was driving then anyway. So it was just better for both our sakes. XD Anyway.. we're almost to Dallas then we hit traffic and basically stop. UGH. It was so bad..we had like 20 minutes left and it took us twice that time to get through the city and to the hotel. IT WAS HORRIBLE. And then while we were waiting, I looked out the windows and see.. birds. Lots. Of. Birds. Seriously, it was horrifying how many birds there were! On the electric lines, on the fences, EVERYWHERE BIRDS!
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Finally we made it down to the part of town where the Westin was. I could see it.. it was SO CLOSE! Then at long last we're there, and find out we have to pay for parking. This hotel had so many problems with hidden fees, it wasn't funny. We haul our stuff inside, I get us checked in and then we head upstairs. I'm thinking, hey for $110 a night we're gonna get a fridge, microwave and tv and wifi! WOO! But I was so wrong. About two weeks before I found out that wifi isn't free unless you're in the lobby or standing on the second floor balcony hanging over the lobby. -____- There was no fridge in the room, and no microwave. There was a crappy tv, a teeny tiny safe and a recycle bin however! Because by some off chance I might have a plastic bottle in the room with me to throw in that blue container. Ugh. We had bought milk for our breakfast and brought cereal and yogurt with us and there is no fridge, so we fandangled ourselves one out of using two trash cans and filling em with ice. Didn't work that well, but it helped at least. The milk was sour by Sunday morning. UGH.
Besides the asinine room amenities, it was a pretty nice room. Beds weren't as big as I imagined, but eh whatever. We got settled, grabbed something to eat and I think we registered since they had it set up for people to do so. I think we also wandered around the vendors that were already set up. Ria went upstairs for a while and I roamed around downstairs with my birthday cards to get people to sign them and I ended up meeting Ariel, Mindy, Emily, Alestra, Tina and more fans that were sitting in the hotel bar area. Ariel had brought a restored impala with her but it was at the paint shop since they had a boo-boo driving it from Florida. The lock on the tarp that covered Baby scratched the paint off and they had to get it fixed. So we hung out and then a few people started gushing about an impala in the lot, so naturally I had to go look. As I'm leaving the hotel I just about plowed over Gabriel Tigerman. HAH! He's so adorable. I almost hit him and was like OMG.. oh hi! and he just grinned and said hi back. I apologized for almost running him over then told him to have a good night, not wanting to impose on him trying to get checked in. He's such a doll.
Swooned over the other impala that was outside for a bit then eventually I was tired and headed upstairs to bed. Friday morning was good times!
Our trip started on Thursday because Ria and I drove down to Texas then. Hah. We got a late start because we had to wait for Archiver's (a scrap booking store) to open since we needed to print a photo that Ria was going to have signed. Neither of our printers are awesome like that, so we have to pay. BOO. However, we got to the DMV on time and I was able to update my driver licenses, and Ria got her Missouri one and also registered to vote in Missouri. Woohoo! So after we got the licenses and the picture, off we went. We headed through Kansas and even though her GPS was being a fucktard she just went her own way and I kept my mouth shut because I didn't know where I was going and I feel like if I try to get my input in during driving someplace I really should have just kept my mouth shut. :\ I'm no good at directions and every time we end up using her phone's GPS it puts us in whothefuckknowsville. But anyway.. we made it.
So sometime in Oklahoma we switched and I drove through Tulsa and down into Texas while Ria slept. Wasn't too bad of a drive, some idiots and I had to get used to a much bigger car, but it was normal I think. Didn't get pulled over so that was good. We switched back so Ria was driving the closer we got to Dallas. I'm not a fan of driving in new places and she would probably murder me if I was driving then anyway. So it was just better for both our sakes. XD Anyway.. we're almost to Dallas then we hit traffic and basically stop. UGH. It was so bad..we had like 20 minutes left and it took us twice that time to get through the city and to the hotel. IT WAS HORRIBLE. And then while we were waiting, I looked out the windows and see.. birds. Lots. Of. Birds. Seriously, it was horrifying how many birds there were! On the electric lines, on the fences, EVERYWHERE BIRDS!
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BIIIIIIRRRRDDDSSS!!!
Finally we made it down to the part of town where the Westin was. I could see it.. it was SO CLOSE! Then at long last we're there, and find out we have to pay for parking. This hotel had so many problems with hidden fees, it wasn't funny. We haul our stuff inside, I get us checked in and then we head upstairs. I'm thinking, hey for $110 a night we're gonna get a fridge, microwave and tv and wifi! WOO! But I was so wrong. About two weeks before I found out that wifi isn't free unless you're in the lobby or standing on the second floor balcony hanging over the lobby. -____- There was no fridge in the room, and no microwave. There was a crappy tv, a teeny tiny safe and a recycle bin however! Because by some off chance I might have a plastic bottle in the room with me to throw in that blue container. Ugh. We had bought milk for our breakfast and brought cereal and yogurt with us and there is no fridge, so we fandangled ourselves one out of using two trash cans and filling em with ice. Didn't work that well, but it helped at least. The milk was sour by Sunday morning. UGH.
Besides the asinine room amenities, it was a pretty nice room. Beds weren't as big as I imagined, but eh whatever. We got settled, grabbed something to eat and I think we registered since they had it set up for people to do so. I think we also wandered around the vendors that were already set up. Ria went upstairs for a while and I roamed around downstairs with my birthday cards to get people to sign them and I ended up meeting Ariel, Mindy, Emily, Alestra, Tina and more fans that were sitting in the hotel bar area. Ariel had brought a restored impala with her but it was at the paint shop since they had a boo-boo driving it from Florida. The lock on the tarp that covered Baby scratched the paint off and they had to get it fixed. So we hung out and then a few people started gushing about an impala in the lot, so naturally I had to go look. As I'm leaving the hotel I just about plowed over Gabriel Tigerman. HAH! He's so adorable. I almost hit him and was like OMG.. oh hi! and he just grinned and said hi back. I apologized for almost running him over then told him to have a good night, not wanting to impose on him trying to get checked in. He's such a doll.
Swooned over the other impala that was outside for a bit then eventually I was tired and headed upstairs to bed. Friday morning was good times!
Monday, October 1, 2012
Supernatural DallasCon 2012
Holy. Shit. This was the best con yet. It was only my second, but still. BEST. ONE. YET. I'll give you a run down of the highlights..
- Chad Lindberg remembered me from my bday chat back in March. He singled me out during his panel while scanning the audience and looked at me for a second before going 'I know you..' and then gave me a grin and a wink. *dies*
- Gabriel Tigerman was much more than I expected. I love how the people on this show can make me excited and happy to meet them even when I'm not at first. He talked about "the world's largest prairie dog (but called it a ground hog)" which is about an hour from where I live. His story about it was HILARIOUS!
- Karaoke was the most fun I have ever had at karaoke. I EVEN SANG! Chad snatched my camera a few times, Ria and I got on stage and sang, then Chad stole my Ghostbuster's tie off of my neck, almost dragging me with it. It was so fantastic.
- Sebastian Roche is the dirtiest bastard I have ever met and he had me laughing so hard I was crying. We were also v-neck shirt twinsies that day, and it was fantastic to ask him a question and be dirty with him. Hah.
- Mark Sheppard was someone I was already having feelings for and after his panel and spending time with him during the cocktail party, he holds a piece of my heart with his snarkiness. <3
- Mark Pellegrino replaced Misha Collins at the last minute since Misha's wife was having a baby! Mark P. was amazing..totally sleep deprived and a little crazy at times, but he was so sweet! I loved meeting him. I even got to kiss him :D
- Matt and Richard were fantastic during their panel, as always. Got a few shots of them but they would not hold still. Which was the usual. Love my photos with them. :D
- Cocktail party on Saturday night was pretty awesome. Didn't drink because they were stupid expensive and I didn't have any cash anyway. But the handlers were pretty rude about the time restraints for each celebrity at the tables. Richard sat down and barely got to give an answer to the first question before she said it was time for him to move. Ugh. Then he spent a good five minutes at another table. Always irritating when that happens.
- J2 breakfast... so amazing. My table was fairly close and I was excited. Food was okay, glad I had something in my stomach though otherwise I probably would have thrown up at some point from excitement.
- Jared and Jensen's families were there! Both sets of parents and some siblings were there for the breakfast and during the photo ops and panel later in the day. :D
- Jared seemed either sleepy or quiet during the photo ops, but he was happy on stage.
- Jensen gave me back rubs. *DIES*
- Their panel was adorable.. very Disney inspired this time around. lol I also missed Richard's second panel of the weekend. :( Makes me sad I keep missing it but I had to stand in the long ass line for J2 photos!
- The hotel sucked ass. Details to come.
- The people were mostly fantastic. Some were freaks, others were bitches, but most were great and the new friends I made make me smile :D
So those were highlights. I will post other posts for each day, but I wanted to just get those out. I miss Dallas and I miss con..I'm hoping to go back next year.
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Angel
I've been meaning to post about the supernatural convention over the weekend but I've been in such an emotional bubble since I got home I've just wanted to sleep and dream about the weekend. I have really bad post-con blues this time around and it's just been sucky.
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Then today I got horrific news. One of my best friend's children passed away suddenly last night. No warning, no signs, just..gone. His name was Angel and now he is one. If you believe in that sort of thing. He was a darling little boy who always wanted attention and hugs and he really loved to laugh. He was so smart and witty and really full of energy. I'm going to miss his hugs and him yelling for me to come play with him. I only met him a few times but I always enjoyed his company, even when he was being a little pain. He used my iPod a few times as his own personal camera and I'll definitely keep those pictures now.
My thoughts are with my friend. So are my hugs and my love because her little family did not deserve to deal with such heartbreak and to explain to her youngest, who is 3, about what death is and why her Angel won't be coming home from the hospital again.
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Then today I got horrific news. One of my best friend's children passed away suddenly last night. No warning, no signs, just..gone. His name was Angel and now he is one. If you believe in that sort of thing. He was a darling little boy who always wanted attention and hugs and he really loved to laugh. He was so smart and witty and really full of energy. I'm going to miss his hugs and him yelling for me to come play with him. I only met him a few times but I always enjoyed his company, even when he was being a little pain. He used my iPod a few times as his own personal camera and I'll definitely keep those pictures now.
My thoughts are with my friend. So are my hugs and my love because her little family did not deserve to deal with such heartbreak and to explain to her youngest, who is 3, about what death is and why her Angel won't be coming home from the hospital again.
RIP Angel. You will be sorely missed.
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Two days
We leave for Dallas in two days. SO EXCITED!!!!!
I make an appointment for Ria and I to get manicures tonight. Stoked about that. It'll be weird having someone else messing with my hands and painting them. I've never been on the receiving end of that kind of stuff, I'm always the one painting someone elses nails and my own. :] I can't wait to see how they look. We're getting french manicures for the weekend. I just hope that my nails are good enough to get the right look and don't look half-assed or something. ><
Steve Carlson's new album became available to buy today online. Oh dear god it is so beautiful. Jensen is featured in one of the songs, playing and singing in it and it just makes me swooooooooooooon.
I wasn't really planning on trying to say anything to Jensen and Jared during the panel. Well.. I was, then thought better of it, but now I'm undecided because I really love this song. I especially love the line "All your 'secret wishes' could right now be coming true" it's really beautiful and haunting. Guh. Love it.
My button for Misha is still MIA. *grump* I'm really irritated about it. Also. My glasses are MIA because some little turd (Priestly) decided to have a spazz at like 5:30 this morning and ran over me and my bedside table and I heard them clatter but didn't realize they fell in the floor. They're probably under my bed somewhere since I can't see them around the table, but I'm gonna find em. I'm going to try and start packing some stuff up. Bathroom type stuff with make up and everything and some clothes that I don't plan on wearing this week. I just need..some motivation.
Okay..so TMI Tuesday is gonna follow. No one reads this but me, but if someone stumbles upon this and you don't want TMI then don't keep reading. lol You've been warned.
It's been a week of firsts and stuff...well sort of. It'll be the first time I've been to Oklahoma and Texas on our trip this weekend. I also uh.. well, this is personal, but I used a tampon for the first time ever this week. Totally weird. It's something I've never been comfortable dealing with or doing, so I've avoided it. But with getting older and having heavy flows to begin with, and traveling and wanting to have a good time I figured it was a good time to finally bite the bullet and do it. Try it at least and just see how it goes. Like I said, totally weird. Slightly uncomfortable but not in a bad way. I just know something's THERE. Hah..mentioned this to mom earlier and she's like 'practice makes perfect' so.. yeah, guess I'll keep it up and see how it goes this week while at home and on the road to Dallas.
So now that TMI Tuesday is out of the way..haha. I gotta get dressed and start packing some stuff :D
I make an appointment for Ria and I to get manicures tonight. Stoked about that. It'll be weird having someone else messing with my hands and painting them. I've never been on the receiving end of that kind of stuff, I'm always the one painting someone elses nails and my own. :] I can't wait to see how they look. We're getting french manicures for the weekend. I just hope that my nails are good enough to get the right look and don't look half-assed or something. ><
Steve Carlson's new album became available to buy today online. Oh dear god it is so beautiful. Jensen is featured in one of the songs, playing and singing in it and it just makes me swooooooooooooon.
Click to play and be amazed! <3 <3 <3
I wasn't really planning on trying to say anything to Jensen and Jared during the panel. Well.. I was, then thought better of it, but now I'm undecided because I really love this song. I especially love the line "All your 'secret wishes' could right now be coming true" it's really beautiful and haunting. Guh. Love it.
My button for Misha is still MIA. *grump* I'm really irritated about it. Also. My glasses are MIA because some little turd (Priestly) decided to have a spazz at like 5:30 this morning and ran over me and my bedside table and I heard them clatter but didn't realize they fell in the floor. They're probably under my bed somewhere since I can't see them around the table, but I'm gonna find em. I'm going to try and start packing some stuff up. Bathroom type stuff with make up and everything and some clothes that I don't plan on wearing this week. I just need..some motivation.
Okay..so TMI Tuesday is gonna follow. No one reads this but me, but if someone stumbles upon this and you don't want TMI then don't keep reading. lol You've been warned.
It's been a week of firsts and stuff...well sort of. It'll be the first time I've been to Oklahoma and Texas on our trip this weekend. I also uh.. well, this is personal, but I used a tampon for the first time ever this week. Totally weird. It's something I've never been comfortable dealing with or doing, so I've avoided it. But with getting older and having heavy flows to begin with, and traveling and wanting to have a good time I figured it was a good time to finally bite the bullet and do it. Try it at least and just see how it goes. Like I said, totally weird. Slightly uncomfortable but not in a bad way. I just know something's THERE. Hah..mentioned this to mom earlier and she's like 'practice makes perfect' so.. yeah, guess I'll keep it up and see how it goes this week while at home and on the road to Dallas.
So now that TMI Tuesday is out of the way..haha. I gotta get dressed and start packing some stuff :D
Sunday, September 16, 2012
It's finally here!
The week that Ria and I go to Dallas and see Jared, Jensen, Misha, Chad, Mark S, Sebastian, Matt, Richard and Gabe again! Well, we'll be meeting Mark S, Sebastian and Gabe for the first time but seeing everyone else again. :D I'm so excited. It's really getting to me, like my chest keeps getting these little tight sensations that I get when I'm excited or nervous about something. Weeee!
I seem to have lost my button for Misha. Dammit. I know I stuck it somewhere since I moved here. I know because I've shown it to Ria a few times. It's in here someplace..I know it is. But I have found Matt's card. I don't know if I've mentioned it before but whew, glad I did.
Ria and I went shopping Friday night. Oops. We each got new shirts to wear to Dallas. And some earrings and I got a butterfly necklace that was paired up to a set of studs so that was cool. I really like it, it's so cute. I also finally figured out how to style my hair without me thinking it looks like absolute shit. And I tried a new way to wear make up today. SUCCESS FOR LOOKING CUTE!
But yeah..besides that, it's been a good day. Finished my psychology class, I'm done with classes til the 20th, then I'll have to bust out some crap Thursday night to get it going for the weekend if anything is actually due over the weekend. I hope it isn't, but my luck, it will be. BOO. I will have American Art History and Advanced Illustration until Oct 27th. Then I have only 4 more classes after. SO EXCITING TO BE ALMOST FINISHED.
And to bounce back to another subject, Ria and I went to World's of Fun's HAUNT tonight and boy, it was awesome. The lines weren't much to like and the annoying kids who kept yelling at every person in costume that came near them to "high-five me!" almost got a high-five to the face from me. I really can't stand little irritations like that. Many of the workers ignored them anyway, so I'm glad I wasn't the only one annoyed. Sheesh kids. But other than the annoying kids, long lines, and the overly used fog machines, it was pretty good. I was afraid I wasn't going to actually get scared in these things, but I totally did. Many times. Screamed all the way through and Ria was clinging to me the entire time. I'm just glad she didn't grab onto my bruise on my arm..that woulda sucked. I expected more people to be wandering around in costume for the park, but they kept to little spaces. The best part of the night though, was the show. It was called Blood Drums and it was this trio of drummers who were dressed up and using barrels and metal drums for their instruments. They were super nice and we got a picture with them afterwards and I got a hug from the cute one with the mohawk. Ria has that pic on her phone, so I'll have to get it from her tomorrow and edit it a bit if I can. I hope so. Stupid fog and crap. But the cute mohawk guy complemented my butterfly necklace. XD Me likey. It made me feel good, even if it was a compliment for the necklace and not my looks.
Sooooo..other than that it's been mellow-ish. Dealt with stupid people for work and school, got sick earlier this week and spent all day sleeping, and am now hungry again. BOO. I can't wait for this weekend and I hope I'm not overwhelmed with junk to have fun. Paid too much to be distracted by bad crap. GAH! We leave Thursday..SO EXCITING PEOPLE! :D :D :D
I seem to have lost my button for Misha. Dammit. I know I stuck it somewhere since I moved here. I know because I've shown it to Ria a few times. It's in here someplace..I know it is. But I have found Matt's card. I don't know if I've mentioned it before but whew, glad I did.
Ria and I went shopping Friday night. Oops. We each got new shirts to wear to Dallas. And some earrings and I got a butterfly necklace that was paired up to a set of studs so that was cool. I really like it, it's so cute. I also finally figured out how to style my hair without me thinking it looks like absolute shit. And I tried a new way to wear make up today. SUCCESS FOR LOOKING CUTE!
D'aww.. I look kind of cute here.
But yeah..besides that, it's been a good day. Finished my psychology class, I'm done with classes til the 20th, then I'll have to bust out some crap Thursday night to get it going for the weekend if anything is actually due over the weekend. I hope it isn't, but my luck, it will be. BOO. I will have American Art History and Advanced Illustration until Oct 27th. Then I have only 4 more classes after. SO EXCITING TO BE ALMOST FINISHED.
And to bounce back to another subject, Ria and I went to World's of Fun's HAUNT tonight and boy, it was awesome. The lines weren't much to like and the annoying kids who kept yelling at every person in costume that came near them to "high-five me!" almost got a high-five to the face from me. I really can't stand little irritations like that. Many of the workers ignored them anyway, so I'm glad I wasn't the only one annoyed. Sheesh kids. But other than the annoying kids, long lines, and the overly used fog machines, it was pretty good. I was afraid I wasn't going to actually get scared in these things, but I totally did. Many times. Screamed all the way through and Ria was clinging to me the entire time. I'm just glad she didn't grab onto my bruise on my arm..that woulda sucked. I expected more people to be wandering around in costume for the park, but they kept to little spaces. The best part of the night though, was the show. It was called Blood Drums and it was this trio of drummers who were dressed up and using barrels and metal drums for their instruments. They were super nice and we got a picture with them afterwards and I got a hug from the cute one with the mohawk. Ria has that pic on her phone, so I'll have to get it from her tomorrow and edit it a bit if I can. I hope so. Stupid fog and crap. But the cute mohawk guy complemented my butterfly necklace. XD Me likey. It made me feel good, even if it was a compliment for the necklace and not my looks.
Sooooo..other than that it's been mellow-ish. Dealt with stupid people for work and school, got sick earlier this week and spent all day sleeping, and am now hungry again. BOO. I can't wait for this weekend and I hope I'm not overwhelmed with junk to have fun. Paid too much to be distracted by bad crap. GAH! We leave Thursday..SO EXCITING PEOPLE! :D :D :D
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Irritation
Obviously I'm not a skinny person. For anyone who knows me, I wore a single digit pant back in 8th grade and after that my waistline just kept expanding because food was my comfort when I was humiliated and picked on at school every other day. So I get it, I KNOW that I'm big, and to top if off, I know for a fact that my boobs are gigantor. We don't need a play by play, nor do I need you to tell me DAMN! when you see them for the first time.
I'm irriated tonight because at World's of Fun I got on the ride Thunderhawk with Ria. I sat on the end where they generally like to put larger riders because it has a wider seat. Tonight we start to get strapped in, the over-head bar comes down, but the bottom one doesn't. Then the car makes a noise and the over-head bars go back up and here comes the skinny dude who let us on.
"Ma'am, it appears that you are too large for the ride."
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Are you serious? My reply was this "Well that's bullshit because I've been riding this ride most of the summer." I get up in a huff, put my glasses on and look over at Ria who was asking 'what is it?' and I say loud enough for the rest of the people in line and on the ride to hear "Apparently I'm suddenly too fat to ride this ride, so do you want to get off with me?" and after that I stomped past the guy, if he said anything, I didn't hear him but really, what could the jerk say? I shove the gate open and just leave, Ria ends up following behind me in a rage as well. I'm embarrassed and flustered, because I haven't been told in YEARS that 'you're too fat' for an honest to god reason, and now, when I've been losing weight all summer long, and on a ride I've ridden a handful of times in the last month alone, I'm suddenly too fat. THERE IS NO LOGIC THERE.
Ugh. I'm just.. UGH. If I had gained weight, if I had to buy new pants or new underwear, then fine, I could understand that because I haven't been to that park in about a month, but not under these circumstances. Ria found a manager and we explained what happened. He was a bigger guy, not fat but just bigger, and he was understanding. He kept asking what I wanted him to do, to go yell at them, to demand they let me ride it, file a complaint(even though he really didn't want me to do that.. hah) or whatever I wanted. And I have no idea what I wanted.. a sorry? A 'you look pretty'? *sigh* So I just told him I don't know, there's not a lot they can do really since he was the games manager (games were right next to this ride). So he apologized, the girl in the arcade area apologized as well and said it was stupid that they do things like that.
*SIIIIIIIIIIIIGH* I just wanna punch something to get it out of my system. Either that or have a cry about how fat I am. Kind of torn how to feel about it. I was embarrassed and hurt and just irritated mostly, but then having to talk to a manager made it slightly worse and better at the same time. :\ I know Ria wanted to complain because she was really upset about it, and I love her for it because I don't like having to complain about my weight being commented on to someone who's skinny and probably five years younger than me. Thankfully that wasn't the case at all because he was really understanding.
But yeah.. end rant for that. Then I realized that my messed up tooth has gotten worse. A piece actually chipped off earlier. I think I actually felt it/crunched it while I was eating dinner at Bandana's.. ew. >< But I am gonna have to suck it up and go to a dentist next week or call at least to see if they can do something about it and how much it'd cost. :\ I also need to take my other pair of glasses to America's Best and have them fuck with them because I really wanna wear them but they sit crooked! :(
Only a week left til the Dallas convention! SO EXCITED! Gotta get everything ready.. eeee!
I'm irriated tonight because at World's of Fun I got on the ride Thunderhawk with Ria. I sat on the end where they generally like to put larger riders because it has a wider seat. Tonight we start to get strapped in, the over-head bar comes down, but the bottom one doesn't. Then the car makes a noise and the over-head bars go back up and here comes the skinny dude who let us on.
"Ma'am, it appears that you are too large for the ride."
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Are you serious? My reply was this "Well that's bullshit because I've been riding this ride most of the summer." I get up in a huff, put my glasses on and look over at Ria who was asking 'what is it?' and I say loud enough for the rest of the people in line and on the ride to hear "Apparently I'm suddenly too fat to ride this ride, so do you want to get off with me?" and after that I stomped past the guy, if he said anything, I didn't hear him but really, what could the jerk say? I shove the gate open and just leave, Ria ends up following behind me in a rage as well. I'm embarrassed and flustered, because I haven't been told in YEARS that 'you're too fat' for an honest to god reason, and now, when I've been losing weight all summer long, and on a ride I've ridden a handful of times in the last month alone, I'm suddenly too fat. THERE IS NO LOGIC THERE.
Ugh. I'm just.. UGH. If I had gained weight, if I had to buy new pants or new underwear, then fine, I could understand that because I haven't been to that park in about a month, but not under these circumstances. Ria found a manager and we explained what happened. He was a bigger guy, not fat but just bigger, and he was understanding. He kept asking what I wanted him to do, to go yell at them, to demand they let me ride it, file a complaint(even though he really didn't want me to do that.. hah) or whatever I wanted. And I have no idea what I wanted.. a sorry? A 'you look pretty'? *sigh* So I just told him I don't know, there's not a lot they can do really since he was the games manager (games were right next to this ride). So he apologized, the girl in the arcade area apologized as well and said it was stupid that they do things like that.
*SIIIIIIIIIIIIGH* I just wanna punch something to get it out of my system. Either that or have a cry about how fat I am. Kind of torn how to feel about it. I was embarrassed and hurt and just irritated mostly, but then having to talk to a manager made it slightly worse and better at the same time. :\ I know Ria wanted to complain because she was really upset about it, and I love her for it because I don't like having to complain about my weight being commented on to someone who's skinny and probably five years younger than me. Thankfully that wasn't the case at all because he was really understanding.
But yeah.. end rant for that. Then I realized that my messed up tooth has gotten worse. A piece actually chipped off earlier. I think I actually felt it/crunched it while I was eating dinner at Bandana's.. ew. >< But I am gonna have to suck it up and go to a dentist next week or call at least to see if they can do something about it and how much it'd cost. :\ I also need to take my other pair of glasses to America's Best and have them fuck with them because I really wanna wear them but they sit crooked! :(
Only a week left til the Dallas convention! SO EXCITED! Gotta get everything ready.. eeee!
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